Looking at the people around me makes me wonder is it only me that is trying to draw near to God, is it only me that feels so convicted. Am I the only person worried about the end of my life? I look at myself and keep on judging me, how I speak to people, what my reaction is towards everyone around me. I try and consider everybody these days, I look at them and think before I speak. Being careful not to speak out what I feel.
The change is taking forever, I look at myself and cry many a day and wonder Lord am I getting closer to You? I fall all the time and it seems when I get up and dust myself off I walk a short way and trip and fall again. I have a bad temper and I speak many times before I think.
Proverbs 14: 12 There is a way that seem right to a man, but its end is … death. Daniel 4: 37 Pride is dangerous, it forces you to lie in a helpless state for days, sometimes years. If you don’t ask for help immediately, you could have gotten up and gone on with your life.
As for me, I have found that the most difficult time in my life is now, the challenge I face with myself is the fact that I am doing what I can to draw near to the Lord and the more I try the harder I fall. I keep finding myself crying out to the Lord for help.
Keeping watch over my mouth and looking at my circumstance, I hope and pray the Lord will accept my humble prayer and let me draw near to Him. Amen