This morning in the shower I stood before the Lord my God and prayed that He would please forgive me, I felt that I have been abandoned and that I have disappointed Him so dearly. I then went to wake my husband and step children. Got dressed and prayed “Please Lord God I pray that I may be clothed with the Lord Jesus Christ.” We drove off to church and as I walked into the church I was quiet and waiting for something to happen. I sat next to my husband and we looked at the messages that were popping up on the screen, someone passed away, someone is sick etc. The preacher came into the church and greeted the congregation. A couple of songs were sang and then, I felt this breaking in my spirit, tears rolling down my cheeks I could not stop it. I felt so desperately alone and as though I was abandoned.
John 14:1-17Living Bible (TLB)
14 “Let not your heart be troubled. You are trusting God, now trust in me. 2-3 There are many homes up there where my Father lives, and I am going to prepare them for your coming. When everything is ready, then I will come and get you, so that you can always be with me where I am. If this weren’t so, I would tell you plainly. 4 And you know where I am going and how to get there.”
5 “No, we don’t,” Thomas said. “We haven’t any idea where you are going, so how can we know the way?” 6 Jesus told him, “I am the Way—yes, and the truth and the Life. No one can get to the Father except by means of me. 7 If you had known who I am, then you would have known who my Father is. From now on you know him—and have seen him!” 8 Philip said, “Sir, show us the Father and we will be satisfied.”9 Jesus replied “Don’t you even yet know who I am, Philip, even after all this time I have been with you? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father! So why are you asking to see him? 10 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words I say are not my own but are from my Father who lives in me. And he does his work through me. 11 Just believe it—that I am in the Father and the Father is in me. Or else believe it because of the mighty miracles you have seen me do. 12-13 “In solemn truth I tell you, anyone believing in me shall do the same miracles I have done, and even greater ones, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask him for anything, using my name, and I will do it, for this will bring praise to the Father because of what I, the Son, will do for you. 14 Yes, ask anything, using my name, and I will do it! 15-16 “If you love me, obey me; and I will ask the Father and he will give you another Comforter, and he will never leave you. 17 He is the Holy Spirit, the Spirit who leads into all truth. The world at large cannot receive him, for it isn’t looking for him and doesn’t recognize him. But you do, for he lives with you now and someday shall be in you.