Showing posts from August, 2018

“I think that’s unfair!”

Matthew 5: 45 AMP“so that you may [show yourselves to] be the children of your Father who is in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on those who are evil and on those who are good, and makes the rain fall on the righteous [those who are morally upright] and the unrighteous [the unrepentant, those who oppose Him].”
I don’t know about you, but I was truly upset when I heard the person that hurt me so badly gets everything I ever dreamt about. It made me really angry and I thought to myself, Lord don’t you think this is a bit unfair?
The problem with this is I know what this person has done to me and how I was hurt in the process yet this person is being blessed so abundantly. It took me a while to come to terms with this. Then I read something Joyce Meyer wrote something reminding that I actually should let it go. Forgive this person and remember that the Lord allows the sun to shine on the righteous and the unrighteous.
Honestly speaking, I am still learning to forgive and move forward. I f…

Plagued by Guilty Feelings!

Romans 8: 1 AMP “Escape from Bondage”
“Therefore there is now no condemnation [no guilty verdict, no punishment] for those who are in Christ Jesus [who believe in Him as personal Lord and Savior].”
I struggle with feelings of guilt constantly; when I eat a little more than I usually do and I see that I have put on some weight. I start punishing myself for being a glutton. I am getting fat and look terrible. When, in fact, I am not obese, but that little voice tells me “you are fat and ugly.”
When I was younger I was told constantly that I look like a cow, so fat that I would never get married again. I then became bulimic. When you grow older weight isn’t something you can control. To some extent yes, but not totally.
I also struggle with past mistakes which plague my mind, I would constantly be hard on myself for the decision I made. These guilty feelings would ride me for days on end. One day I thought about what I was thinking, and I remembered what Joyce Meyer said: “think about what…

Am I ever StormProof?

Proverbs 3: 5-6 “Trust in and rely confidently on the LORD with all your heart and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him, and He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way].”
Am I storm proof? Honestly, I do not believe that I am storm proof. I used to watch "Heroes" and do you remember Matt Parkman? Well, when I was watching this show, I freaked out when I saw him listen in on other people’s thoughts.  We need to trust in and rely confidently on the LORD with all our hearts and not rely on our own insight and or understanding.  We should always know and recognize Jesus, He will straighten and smooth the way ahead of us.
I do not want someone hearing my thoughts. There are times when I am off, and I am in a fight with myself. This person will know that I am struggling and zone in on my thoughts.
I know the devil cannot read our minds thank God for that, but I do believe he …

The Sudden death of a Colleague

Psalm 42: 5 “Why are thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted in me? Hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance”
Sunday afternoon I received a WhatsApp message from my colleague. One of our colleagues passed away Friday evening. I didn’t have words to say.  Today we came into the office everybody seems to be dismayed and still not sure. It was confirmed that this person died Friday in a motor vehicle accident.
If there is anybody that can worry about things that are out of their control it would be me. I was thinking perhaps it was a mistake and hey they are okay. We joke every day in the office and I’m sure this guy is okay.
It’s been an emotional roller-coaster today my friends and I have been sobbing. We cannot believe this actually happened. I see when my friend thinks of this guy tears wells up and she starts crying. We feel a little overwhelmed.
King David went through trying times but he didn’t allow himself to fall into depression. I…

I decided to wait on the LORD!

Psalm 119: 97 AMPMem
“OH, how I love Your law! It is my meditation all the day.”I woke up from a dream and I told my husband what I dreamt. In my dream, I was talking to someone and I said, I am so sick of collecting all kinds of stuff. She asked me like what? I said, “You know, new clothes, new shoes, new dishes and all kinds of new things for the house.” She said isn’t that what life is all about? I answered her and said “No, I feel that I am wasting my money on unnecessary stuff. I don’t have to be dressed in the latest fashion etc.” My husband laughed and thought I was being philosophical. I believe I have come to realise all these things on earth won’t get me to heaven. Sure they are beautiful but I don’t really find any value in them. The LORD wants us to invest our time in HIM. I believe that the LORD reminds us to spend time with Him. Psalm 84 verses 10 “For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand [anywhere else]’ I would rather stand [as a doorkeeper] at the threshold o…

Wait for the LORD

Psalm 33: 20 AMP “We wait [expectantly] for the LORD; He is our help and our shield.”
Our lives have become so time sensitive. People are driven by their schedules. Meetings, appointments etc. We are in such a rush to get to our next appointment. I think about the age when Time stood still for me. As I child I felt the days were so very long. I thought a year felt like 10 years. It was my perspective then, right now I think the time is running out for me. I don’t have enough time and I have so much to do. My life journey poses loads of interesting detours and makes me come to a sudden halt when I don’t consult with the LORD. In these detours, I realize that I need to focus on the LORD. Wait for the LORD. Psalms chapter 31 verse 24 reminds me “be strong and let your hearts take courage, all you who wait for and confidently expect the LORD.” We need to come in obedience to the LORD and He will help us. Psalms chapter 5 verse 3 reminds me to pray and speak to the LORD in the morning, “O LO…

God has a purpose for my life.

My husband and I were talking about a woman that was raped and a child was the result of this rape. We both have felt the child was unwanted and that because of the circumstances the child would probably be mistreated or given up for adoption.
On the other hand, God has a plan for each one of us, wanted or unwanted. In Jeremiah Chapter 1 verse 5 ESV “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nation.”
God knows each one of us before we were born. He has stated it clearly in Scripture. So we are all born for a reason. God has a plan for each one of our lives.
Acts 17: 26 – 27 AMP “And He made from one man every nation of mankind to live on the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their lands and territories.  This was so that they would seek God if perhaps they might grasp for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us.”
I believ…

I am learning to develop steadfastness and patience.

I have decided to become purpose driven. My first strategy is to say what I mean. Then I am also working on not speaking against myself or gossiping about others. I am learning to become immune to the actions of others. I have seen that people try and set me up to fail. I have decided not to become a victim in these situations.
My development in steadfastness is a slow process. I have decided to ignore stupid people. I know people who constantly believe they are always right. Read Proverbs 12 verse 15 - 25.
I am not a very patient person. I know Proverbs 14 verse 29 says "Whoever is patient has great understanding. but one who is quick-tempered displays folly." I am of course doing my best to practice patience and it is a slow process on my side.
2 Thessalonians 3: 5 ESV May the Lord direct your hearts to the love of God and to the steadfastness of Christ.
I believe God is busy in my personal life. I have come to realise that it is important to do my best…