Eyes on You Lord

Is. 45: 19 “I am the LORD, and I speak the truth; I make known what is right.”

LORD God as I am reading myself to go to bed, You know my hearts desires and my dreams, I have spoken to You about them.  I humbly come before You and ask You please Father God, will you give me a clean vision and goal for my own life, You speak the truth and You make know what is right, I am asking You show me Lord and guide me.

Help me find peace of mind while I am waiting and give me the strength to carry on I feel I need You more and more each day, I can’t make it on my own any more.

In Jesus Christ’s name I pray amen

Challenges we as woman face

2 Corinthians 4: 13 

‘It is written:  ‘I believed, therefore I have spoken.'

Since we have that same spirit of faith, 

we also believe and therefore speak.’

Before you read something about my past remember I am a woman who faced daunting times and blow after blow I never gave up.  I got up each morning and prayed Help me face today Lord Jesus. 

I believed God would help me through the most difficult time in my life, I will prosper and succeed in everything I do, I declare this in Jesus Christ’s name.

Life has dealt me some interesting times when I think of all the hardships I had endure and how close I got to God in times when I felt so abandoned and alone.  It seems so strange to even think of it.  My life was difficult for most of my adult years, drug abuse was something we witnessed in our house.  

A really very stressful time in my life, I found in those days, weight loss was normal and hair loss just as normal, being nervous and constantly on my guard waiting for the bad news to come and knock me down.  One morning I decide this enough, I need to make some drastic changes, I went to the office and phone some lawyers and made appointments.  I needed to regain my dignity and find myself again.  

As a Christian woman it was one of the most difficult things for me to do and that was to go ahead with a divorce.  This would mean changing so many things, moving losing everything we work for and not having the same stand of living.  Nevertheless now was the time to strike, I made up my mind and get this behind me.  I prayed about this and then I went to see my Pastor, things were difficult and I told him I can’t carry on living like this anymore.

Regardless to say as an abused woman, mentally, physically and emotionally not forgetting financially I have come up stronger.  I am not perfect and I can smile at the world and know my roots.  I am rooted in the Lord Jesus Christ who gives me my daily bread, who strengthens me.  I have come to a place in my life where I will be more in Jesus Christ and the woman I was less.  I strive to do things perfectly, I strive to work harder, I want to give people more than they expect and I want to be a blessing for other people.

When you face difficult times we seem to run on automatic, if you are grounded and rooted in the Lord Jesus Christ things are difficult but the burden is not heavy.  My hope is in the Lord Jesus Christ and as I face today I thank Him for this new life I am living.  Blessed with peace and happiness and the Lord Almighty has blessed all my children with abundance and wealth!

Mistakes I don’t want to make again.

Acts 28: 26 – 27 (ESV)

²⁶ “‘Go to this people, and say,
“You will indeed hear but never understand,
    and you will indeed see but never perceive.”
²⁷ For this people's heart has grown dull,
    and with their ears they can barely hear,
    and their eyes they have closed;
lest they should see with their eyes
    and hear with their ears
and understand with their heart
    and turn, and I would heal them.’

As I sit here and think about hearing it reminds me of a couple of weeks ago when I was totally deaf in my left ear.  Being stubborn and not wanting to go to the doctor I thought ‘this too will pass’, and it did not.  Plucking up the courage I decided to see the doctor.  He told me it’s nothing serious; my ear was blocked and it can be remedied with “waxol”.

During that period I didn’t hear much and it was really peaceful, as I used to try and listen to what the kids were saying and keep up with their gossip.  This made me think a little and it came to mind that I have been really deaf to the Word of God.  I have been stubborn and didn’t really pay attention.  On reading this passage today it made me sit up and think about mistakes I really don’t want to do again.

One is to not judge people immediately and give them a chance to prove themselves.  Another is to show compassion and take in what is being said.  Something else that I truly want to avoid by all costs is to be jealous and throw tantrums.  My jealous nature is really one that can drive me insane and it gets my suspicious mind watching every move my darling husband makes, turning me into a spoilt teenager throwing tantrums. 

Humbly I pray the Lord to renew my mind and help me keep away from old habits and bad mistakes, helping me cope and change as I grow older.  

Lord as I know I have been deaf and blind simultaneously I humbly pray and ask You to please renew my mind and soul, create in me a clean heart and pure spirit.  Help me make good choices as I go through me day, in the Holy name of Jesus Christ.  Amen

Regular Prayer for family and friends ....

Acts 16: 31 (AMP)

³¹ And they answered, Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ [^[d]give yourself up to Him, ^[e] take yourself out of your own keeping and entrust yourself into His keeping] and you will be saved, [and this applies both to] you and your household as well.

Abba Father, humbly I come before You asking for the salvation of family and friends that do not know or have a personal relationship with You.

2 Corinthians 4: 4 (AMP)

⁴ For the god of this world has blinded the unbelievers’ minds [that they should not discern the truth], preventing them from seeing the illuminating light of the Gospel of the glory of Christ (the Messiah), Who is the Image and Likeness of God.

Please Lord I pray that You will reveal Yourself to my family and friends and that Your Holy Spirit will open their eyes and ears to Your word, so that they may experience Your abundant love for them.

As I bring these members of my family and friends before I pray that You will hear my heart’s desire and save them as per your Word in Psalm 21: 2.

Amen

Power in the Name of Jesus

Proverbs 18:14Amplified Bible (AMP)

¹⁴ The strong spirit of a man sustains him in bodily pain or trouble, but a weak and broken spirit who can raise up or bear?

Blow after blow I endured for some many years and this year it struck me to such an extent that committing suicide would have been the best answer for me.  My weak and broken spirit could not move forward any more.  I was constantly crying and everything seemed to be against me.  I finally spoke to my husband and my daughter, telling them the overwhelming feeling of despair that was haunting me constantly.  It seemed that my life was falling apart and the even God had abandoned me.  

 A couple of weeks ago I decided to get my house in order as I was sure I would not make this year going forward, I told my husband, I wanted to get all my project in order and sort things out as I was certain I was going to die.

In the meantime I have been to my GP who has given me medication to help me deal with my daily stress which by the way aren’t earth moving problems.  Just a daily life.

Psalm 38 (amp) spoke to me personally and it seemed that God had let me down.  I started focusing on my Lord, ‘Matthew 6:33 But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.’  

I made it my mission going forward to focus on God and stay in the word, when feeling down I would listen to Gospel music my daughter forwarded to me via Whatsup and when life felt too heavy for me, I would read my Bible, looking constantly to draw near to the Lord.  

Today after so many months of anxiety I feel confidant to look forward and trust in the Lord, to change my future and know that my God loves me with mercies untold.  I know that each and every chain is being broken by my Lord Jesus.