As fresh water brings joy to the thirsty, so God’s people
rejoice when He saves them. Isaiah 12:3
My strength lies in the Lord my God and I know this but
today I failed to see God in all I did.
I was weak and I just felt like ice melting away under the suns blazing
sun. The problems I faced seem to engulf
and swallow me up.
The sad part is everything I write has to be filtered as I cannot
speak openly and up front. I need to
watch my ‘p’s’ and ‘q’s’. Worst of all, I know that God isn’t mad at me
but I feel as though He has left me.
I have decided not to tell you the negative or even mention
the parties concerned it would be a disappointment to you too. People of stature … then again it made me
realise that God put me here where I am to love the people. These challenges are so trying that I become
so depressed to the point of suicide but thank God for His encouraging Words
every day.
I have come to realise that the characteristic and traits of
the people I currently am involved with are the very kind I am trying to get
rid of. Bitterness and self-centredness
but to mention a few, when the Lord my God saves me I will be glad. I am believe God is transforming me and that
the Holy Spirit is involved. I feel the
pain, the isolation and loneliness, I feel as though I cannot accomplish
anything I put my hand to. It seems that
God has put a shield around me that I just cannot move from. I urge Him constantly please bless me, let me
prosper help met shine. The dome around
me stays put and I am in it until God lifts it.
I need to learn to be kinder, I need to learn to be patient, I need to
learn to love the people just as they are.
I need to relax my opinion about everybody.
Lord I am bold in asking You please save me so that I may
rejoice and glad in You.
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