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#gracetothehumble

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1 Peter 5: 5 AMP
“Likewise, you younger men [of lesser rank and experience], be subject to your elders [eek their counsel]; and all of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another [tie on the servant’s apron], for GOD IS OPPOSED TO THE PROUD [the disdainful, the presumptuous, and He defeats them], BUT HE GIVES GRACE TO THE HUMBLE.”
Sometimes life can come with a curveball. I have been experiencing a difficult year all around. Just when I think I’m getting there something comes my way and poof I’m out. The most difficult situations are the ones I experience psychologically. Like in my mind, and I sense things are wrong but I have no control over them. Also, I realize there is another situation I just cannot control and I feel helpless about it.
When situations are difficult and I just don’t know what to do, I cry out to God. This morning my mind was racing and the devil was planting all kinds of seeds. Trying to get me upset about something at home. I kept on going to God, and…

“Be careful little tongue what you say.”

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James 1: 26 – 27 AMP
“If anyone thinks himself to be religious [scrupulously observant of the rituals of his faith], and does not control his tongue but deludes his own heart, this person’s religion is worthless (futile, barren). Pure and unblemished religion [as it is expressed in outward acts] in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit and look after the fatherless and the widows in their distress, and to keep oneself uncontaminated by the [secular] world.”
In honesty I believe I am the one person who is very good with putting my foot in my mouth on more than one occasion. I have made so many faux pas when it comes to my own family. Without thinking I would “like” each and every post on Facebook, not really reading what is said. I just go ahead and “like” the post. Oops! I did it again.
My goodness and what about my filters?Talking to my husband and blurting out what I think of this that or the other and guess what I have said something to offend him, my children or my step c…

#Rejection - Thursday

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Philippians 4: 6 AMP
“Do not be anxious or worried about anything, but in everything [every circumstance and situation] by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your [specific] requests know to God.”
My friends and my husband constantly say things like “why do you worry about what others think of you?” The truth is I do want their approval and feel like I fit in. The fact remains that I don’t have many friends and it seems like I never am good enough for even people in my life. I work hard not to feel rejected when someone says something I feel a little tender about. Sometimes people say and do things that hurt me and I suppose I actually do the same to them too. Those little actions can stick and sting.  I must guard against that little seed of rejection which I fear could turn into a root of bitterness in my own heart causing havoc in my own life.
I know God has created me different to most people, yes it’s difficult to always understand me. I know God has a purpose a…

#Prayer

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Philippians 4: 6 AMP
“Do not be anxious or worried about anything, but in everything [every circumstance and situation] by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your [specific] requests known to God.”
The past couple of months I have been waking up around 4 am every morning. During this time I just pray and say thank you to the Lord for another day. I then start talking to Him about my children and grandchildren and stepchildren. My worry for each day and how I feel in general. By the time my alarm goes off, I am wide awake and ready to start the day.
I must be honest sometimes when I feel so distorted and so abandoned it is almost impossible to speak to God. I do suffer from these difficult days but God is so good He always sends me a gift or something to cheer me up.
I have come to realize that even when I feel that there is no way that I am going to make it, God comes through for me. I also have come to realize that I need to keep on praying. I believe it’s second na…

#Taunting thoughts

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Don’t fear Isaiah 43: 1 – 2 AMP “But now, says the LORD – the one who created you, Jacob, the one who formed you, Israel; Don’t fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; when through the rivers, they won’t sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you won’t be scorched and flame won’t burn you.”
I have come to realise that I have allowed taunting thoughts to overwhelm me. I would wake up in the morning worrying about what was going to happen today. Then I would carry this worry with me thought out the day. By the end of the day, these taunting thoughts would have diminished my self-esteem, paralyzing and demoralizing me. I would be crying all day and hate speech would come to mine.
I would feel tired and miserable not able to do much. Feelings of hopelessness will overwhelm me, I would feel terrible and it would be so paralyzing that I would not be able to work or do anything. I don’t want to eat an…

#Paralyzed in fear

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1 Peter 1: 8-9 (VOICE)
Early Christians stand apart from the culture and suffer social stigmas and physical persecution at times. Peter challenges them to remain faithful to Jesus who alos suffered for not conforming.
“Although you haven’t seen Jesus, you still love Him. Although you don’t yet see Him, you do believe in Him and celebrate with a joy that is glorious and beyond words. You are receiving the salvation of your souls as the result of your faith.”
Can you believe this; we are in the middle of November. Before we realise it, we are sitting in our car on our way to our holiday destination. The scary part is my contract comes to an end, January 2019.
I am facing a giant right now, unemployment. The fear of unemployment has been haunting me day and night. I feel it is robbing me of moving forward. Can I live my life to the fullest?  Is there a way forward? What is it that I can do that will change my situation? I have been applying for jobs. I can only pray that the Lord will open t…

#Mind-control

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Proverbs 23: 7 AMP “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he [in behaviour – one who manipulates]. He says to you, “Eat and Drink,” yet his heart is not with you [but it is begrudging the cost].” I used to say to people “I am going to bake cakes” and guess what? I am baking cakes, the thing about this, I said it and started baking. I enjoy baking and started checking Google for ideas. The more I learned about baking cakes the more I wanted to bake. I see something and like it and try it for myself. It is amazing how we can become single-minded and focused on something we have a passion for.
So do you think it is #mind-control? In a way, I think it might be because we really focus on a specific thing. Can you imagine focusing on important things in your life? Do you know what the results will be?
I have been learning to focus my mind on more positive things in life. It’s very difficult because I am negatively inclined can you believe that? I would see the bad first and later the good.
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