by Yvette van Niekerk The air in the room felt heavy, thick with the kind of silence that isn’t peaceful, but guarded. I’ve spent years building a wall, brick by brick, prayer by silent prayer. Thinking I was protecting my heart from the sting of disappointment. I told myself it was safety. But God whispered a harder truth to my soul: it was a stronghold of pride. In the quiet pages of my Bible, I find women whose stories mirror the shadows of my own heart. I think of Michal, looking down from her window at King David. As he danced before the Lord, stripped of his royal dignity and clothed only in his joy, she didn't see a worshiper. She saw a fool. “She despised him in her heart” (2 Samuel 6:16). That contempt wasn't just a marital spat. It was a spiritual barrenness that took root. I know that coldness. I remember a time in my own life, a moment in the sanctuary. Where I looked at another and thought, “Hypocrite.” I judged the outward show and ignored my own inward decay. T...
"Am I a prisoner of my own dismal predicament, or am I allowing the LORD God to utilise this trying season for His divine purposes?" Perhaps my chains are not a sentence, but a calling? As it is written in Ephesians 3:1-13, even a prison can be a platform. A Petition from a Stubborn Heart Dearest Heavenly Father, I must confess, with a fair amount of chagrin, that I have entirely misinterpreted this difficult season. In my haste, I assumed I was being punished, or worse, abandoned in a dusty corner. Please forgive my audacity in assuming You were against me when, in truth, You were simply positioning me. Lord, do pry my eyes open! If there is refinement needed, then by all means, refine away. If there is preparation afoot, please prepare me. Help me to trust that You are Sovereign over my messy circumstances and intentional with my life. Teach me to see myself not as a captive to my pain, but as a servant of Christ, placed precisely where I am needed for Your glory. Ephesian...