Sabbatical

Without realising it I have taken a ‘time-out’ when I got married and moved towns.  There is no jobs in this place and should you find something it just isn’t worth your time.

To make matter even more interesting I decided to start my own business and I did everything possible to get going.  It has been one struggle after another and it just doesn’t want to go anywhere.  I have come to the conclusion that I am not able to do this in my own strength and that only the Lord God is able to help me.

I have decided to wait on the Lord now as my efforts aren’t paying off and I seem to be walking into a brick wall. 

Now it seems I have taken a leave of absence of work and society.  I am alone most of the time with myself and my own thoughts which by the way can be very scary.  If you don’t like yourself it could be very difficult.  Ah, but I don’t mind being alone, I like the peace and quiet and I read the word of God.  I believe when the time is right and God will promote me and bring me to centre stage.

My needs are met every day, the Lord is providing. 

I await the Lord for guidance, wisdom and insight as I go into this day.  I relax as much as I can and do the things I never seem to have had time for.  I pray a lot and I am working on my book, I hope to get it done and publish it as soon as possible.

Red Bull gives you wings

 I like Red Bull and I must tell you they are radical but when it comes to my Lord Jesus Christ and people making a fool of my God I get really mad.  What on earth is wrong with this world?  No one will us any of the Buddha or Shiva or Allha.  Come on people, the only God that has any power is our Lord Jesus Christ and guess what the world will make fun of my God.

I believe because there is so much power in the name of Jesus Christ that the people know this and will do most anything to get that power.  The problem is Christians don’t stand up for our Lord.  We must stop being so placid and accepting, walk overs and let the world know we do not agree with this sort of thing.

My Lord Jesus Christ walked on the water and there weren’t any stones so don’t you dare come along and say the Lord walked on hidden stones.  You are the fool here not my Lord.

Get up and go on with your life

Monday and I am sitting in my study, I don’t know what my future holds for me.  I don’t know where my life is going.  I am here and it seems that just nothing is happening.  Reading my Bible and doing Bible study and praying for my family.  Then I look at my life and I wonder what is going to become of me.  Everything I try just doesn’t seem to work.  I have basically come into a place where I just cannot move up, down or sideways.  So how on earth do I get up and go on with my life?  How do I get out of this rut I find myself in.  At first it didn’t worry me, I was content and happy to just be.  Lately I don’t want to ‘just be’ I want to life my live.

I have been reading about David and the way his life turned out just after the affair with the beautiful Bathsheba.  King David was standing on this balcony looking out over the city and there Bathsheba was taking a bath on top of her house roof.  A very normal thing to do in those days, when the King saw this beautiful woman he had to have her.

Bathsheba was invited to have some tea with the King.  Of course she would not say no, who says no to the King?  Well, they started chatting and one thing lead to another and she got pregnant.  Hmm, big trouble, the King was told and he panicked.  So he called her husband back from war and wanted the husband to go home and sleep with his wife – getting the king out of a pickle hey.  Oh dear Uriah didn’t go home to sleep with his wife he decided to hang out with the guys. 

King David chatted to the man.  “Uriah how are you man?”  David asked him.  “Great your lord, I hang out with the guys last night.  I felt to guilty going home when I knew my fellow mates are fighting the war and here I am having fun with old wifie.” Uriah answered.   Now King David had to think of a way to get out of this mess.  He called the captain of the guard and told him place Uriah at the front of the battle so that he will be killed in the war.  The captain did as he was told and poor old Uriah was killed during the war.

Bathsheba was told and she mourned her husband and then moved in with the King.  Hmmm, now they can get married and no one will be the wiser.  You think?  Think again, the Lord is watching what was going on and the Lord sent a prophet Nathan to rebuke King David. 

The King was sorry and felt so ashamed of his deeds but thought things will work out just fine.  Then the child was born but it seems it was sickly and David tried to intercede for the child.  He fasted and prayed for the child.  The servants in his house was getting worried because he didn’t want to eat or drink anything.  Finally the child died and David got up washed himself and put on clean clothes and drank.  The people was wondering what is going on with the man. 

They actually asked him what is wrong with you man.  He said “while the child was alive I fasted and wept.  I though “Who knows” perhaps the Lord will be gracious on me and have mercy on me and let the child live.  But now that he is dead why should I fast?  I can’t bring him back from the dead but I will join him later.” 

David went and he comforted his wife Bathsheba and she got pregnant again and Solomon was born. 

I will trust in the Lord as I know He will lift me up at the right time.  I will carry on with my life even if it seems I am not worth much right now.

Weekends

Can you believe it, yes, it is the weekend once again.  I swear times seems to be flying off the hook these days, just the other day it was Monday and look today is Saturday.  I am constantly busy and it seems my days just fly by.  I wonder how the year is going to end for me.  We are preparing to attend our 30 year School reunion, this is going to be so exciting.  We will be seeing some of our class mates and what they have accomplished over the years.

How I miss my husband over weekends, he works away from home and this results in me only seeing him in the week. Weekends his gone and we don't see him until Sunday evening, his normally tired and wants to relax in front of the TV.  How my life has changed. 

I have some encouraging words from the Lord, Psalm 27: 14 Be of good courage, and He will strengthen your hear.  Thank you Lord for being there for me and strengthening me for the day ahead of me.  I cannot face this day without you.  I just cannot.

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Reading this scripture Psalm 139: 14 NIV ‘I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.’

Yes I agree with the Lord, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I can say thank You Lord for making me the way I am.  I have fine dark brown hair, green eyes and a lovely complexion.  Well-balanced individual with the knowledge and understanding that the Lord is my saviour and my God.  I am redeemed and I know that I will go to heaven someday.  I am aging and yes my body is changing and I am hopefully growing old gracefully.  I enjoy the friendship and love of my husband, who by the way adores me.  I also enjoy the friendship of all my children and I love them dearly.  I have the honour of being a Grandma to a beautiful little girl.  She is growing so fast and looking more and more just like her daddy.  

My life is as the Lord has ordained and I am fortunate in being able to live in a peaceful environment with my husband and children. 

Reading and writing as much as I wish and doing the things I love, painting, knitting and sewing.  How wonderful to be me.  I am so very blessed.

Why do we go through ‘wilderness experiences’?

I have been thinking about this for some time, it struck me that we go through the ‘wilderness experience’ to actually humble us before the Lord God.  We have become so self-centred and not concerned at what God can do for us that we forget about Him and do our own thing.  Also, you may have come to repent of your sins and now the testing starts, you don’t understand the difficulties that come to you.

Now the test starts, your car breaks down, after you had it at the garage for a service and repairs.  They have to tow you into the garage and the news come that the ‘gearbox’ is broken.  You just paid about ex amount for the repairs a week ago.  You just get your mind around that ‘gearbox’ being broken and the wife’s car’s right hand side window collapses and falls in, another ex-amount for this to be repaired.  Oh and of course the ‘electricity bill’ this comes too and in fact it was delayed and you forgot to keep some cash aside to pay this account which now amounts to another ex-amount.  Not forgetting the other problems you are experiencing.  Your new wife and children aren’t getting on as well as you imagined and there is constant bickering at home.  She is unhappy with her circumstances and the kids hate her for being such a ‘pain’.  She likes everything to be in order and the house to look clean and no papers lying on the floor.  Dishes washed and dried and packed away.  What’s the fuss about, the kids want to know and she is having ten heart attacks over this mess.

Still you just get your head around this and your mind is spinning for solutions – you just don’t know what is going to happen next.  You find another problem lurking around the corner.  My goodness when will all of this stop?  It is just the beginning of the ‘wilderness experience’.  You need to stop, sit down and recalculate your position.  What?!  You know your position, yes, I know you do.  So this is my suggestion to you.

Humble yourself before the Lord Jesus Christ, bring your problems to Him in prayer, tell Him of what you are going through and ask Him to help you.  I didn’t know which way to turn and I found myself in constant tears, I couldn’t understand the pressure that was being put on me and my family.  Then after many years I realised.  Stop, pray about your problem but most importantly, draw near to the Lord.  Start praising the Lord for the Good things in your life.  Proverbs 3: 33 The Lord’s curse is on the house of the wicked, but he blesses the home of the righteous.  

Now you want to know am I cursed?  No, I don’t believe that I am cursed, I believe I am righteous and I have missed the mark and God has sent all these testing’s to draw me closer to Him.  

The Lord is Almighty and He knows my beginning and my end, yes I have made mistakes and yes I repented but the fact of the matter is, I sowed that seed and now have to reap the fruits of the seed.  I have realised my problems and I can only call out to my Lord and Saviour Lord Jesus Christ, please hear me calling I am guilty of sin and I am sorry for not being obedient to You.  Help me to get back on track and change me according to Your word.  I love You Lord Jesus with all my heart, body and soul.  I repent of my sin and ask You Lord help me through me difficult times, give me peace in my heart and knowledge that you are in control.  Amen