Confession and repentance

By Yvette van Niekerk Ezekiel 20: 43 You shall remember your ways and all your doings with which you were defiled; and you shall loathe yourselves in your own sight because of all the evils that you have committed. It amazes me that when I do not confess my sins and repent of what I have done that is so offense to myself I seem to loath myself. The self-loathing of unconfessed and unrepented sin drives me to tears and my own image becomes distrauted and I seem to believe I am not worthy. Feelings of guilt and failure seem to drive me crazy, I wake up in the morning thinking of the Lord, in within minutes I am reminded of something I said or done. I completely stop my prayers and focus on the wrongs I have committed. This has been a pattern in my life for so long it is so scary. My prayer lately is Lord please reveal to me what I need to confess and repent off. I realise that when I want to keep on to a grudge or a hurt, it weights me down and I seem to fall into despair and my heart is heavy and I feel useless. When I start meditating on God’s Word, praying and thinking about the situation that makes me miserable I confess my part in the problem, I ask God to forgive me and I repent of the thoughts that plague me. I know God’s word say that God knows the secrets of our heart Psalm 44 verse 21. I want the Lord Jesus to break every stronghold in my life. Ezekiel 18 verse 31 says Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. For why should you die? Lord Jesus, I speak Your Name into my own life, I confess that I am a sinful person, I sin and try and get away with it. Today I am asking You Lord Jesus forgive me. I repent of my negative actions. Forgive me. It is my heart’s desire to be quick to confess my sins and repent. It is my desire to live a life in truth and to serve You Lord. Prayer Lord God, You have never failed me yet, I am calling out to You Lord, help me today. I am still in Your hands today, You have never failed me yet. Lord, as I seek and draw near to You, help me today. Your Word will come to pass; my heart will sing your praise again. Jesus You are still enough, keep me within Your love. My heart will sing your praise again. Your promises still stands, Lord great is Your faithfulness, You never fail me. I love You Lord Jesus, thank You for being faithful even when I fail to be faithful. Thank You Lord, Jesus. Amen