Why do we go through ‘wilderness experiences’?

I have been thinking about this for some time, it struck me that we go through the ‘wilderness experience’ to actually humble us before the Lord God.  We have become so self-centred and not concerned at what God can do for us that we forget about Him and do our own thing.  Also, you may have come to repent of your sins and now the testing starts, you don’t understand the difficulties that come to you.

Now the test starts, your car breaks down, after you had it at the garage for a service and repairs.  They have to tow you into the garage and the news come that the ‘gearbox’ is broken.  You just paid about ex amount for the repairs a week ago.  You just get your mind around that ‘gearbox’ being broken and the wife’s car’s right hand side window collapses and falls in, another ex-amount for this to be repaired.  Oh and of course the ‘electricity bill’ this comes too and in fact it was delayed and you forgot to keep some cash aside to pay this account which now amounts to another ex-amount.  Not forgetting the other problems you are experiencing.  Your new wife and children aren’t getting on as well as you imagined and there is constant bickering at home.  She is unhappy with her circumstances and the kids hate her for being such a ‘pain’.  She likes everything to be in order and the house to look clean and no papers lying on the floor.  Dishes washed and dried and packed away.  What’s the fuss about, the kids want to know and she is having ten heart attacks over this mess.

Still you just get your head around this and your mind is spinning for solutions – you just don’t know what is going to happen next.  You find another problem lurking around the corner.  My goodness when will all of this stop?  It is just the beginning of the ‘wilderness experience’.  You need to stop, sit down and recalculate your position.  What?!  You know your position, yes, I know you do.  So this is my suggestion to you.

Humble yourself before the Lord Jesus Christ, bring your problems to Him in prayer, tell Him of what you are going through and ask Him to help you.  I didn’t know which way to turn and I found myself in constant tears, I couldn’t understand the pressure that was being put on me and my family.  Then after many years I realised.  Stop, pray about your problem but most importantly, draw near to the Lord.  Start praising the Lord for the Good things in your life.  Proverbs 3: 33 The Lord’s curse is on the house of the wicked, but he blesses the home of the righteous.  

Now you want to know am I cursed?  No, I don’t believe that I am cursed, I believe I am righteous and I have missed the mark and God has sent all these testing’s to draw me closer to Him.  

The Lord is Almighty and He knows my beginning and my end, yes I have made mistakes and yes I repented but the fact of the matter is, I sowed that seed and now have to reap the fruits of the seed.  I have realised my problems and I can only call out to my Lord and Saviour Lord Jesus Christ, please hear me calling I am guilty of sin and I am sorry for not being obedient to You.  Help me to get back on track and change me according to Your word.  I love You Lord Jesus with all my heart, body and soul.  I repent of my sin and ask You Lord help me through me difficult times, give me peace in my heart and knowledge that you are in control.  Amen

How do I fulfil the needs of the people around me?

Is it by my housekeeping and cooking and making our house into a home?  Is it by looking after the children?  Checking homework, making sure they know what to do next?  Is it by listening to all the long stories and laughing at the silly mistakes they make?  Is it by reading the Bible to them and asking them key questions?

I actually do not know.  I want to make a difference in the lives of each of the people I meet and I so want to be able to know that I was able to fulfil their needs at that time.

I have been drawing closer to the Lord God in humble prayer, I wait to see how the Lord God is going to renew my mind and change my way of life.  I want to be able to serve people and my family without complaining and nagging.  I so want to be a more serving person, someone that you are able to rely on and know that I will be there no matter what.  Do I have the strength and the ability to do my job?  Am I able to make a difference in the lives of my family and friends?  

I can only dedicate my life back into the hands of my Lord Jesus Christ and pray for wisdom, understanding and the will to do as I am asked by God.

People are fickle

I have been watching people and listening to everything they say.  I am starting to think that most or rather all people don’t really want to help me or you, in case you do better than expected.  I have started my own business and I must be honest it is very difficult to get it off the ground.  Not that easy but what I have noticed people have all promised and said, don’t worry we will help you ….. ha ha guess what?  No one is helping.  Pay it forward, I heard and there is no such thing.

I must be honest and say if you think you are going to make it with the help of other, think again.  I find people are all just mouth and no action.

Well I hope that when I one day get asked to help I will be able to help and not just be one of those many that make idle promises and keep mine.

Life, interesting life, it brings me back to what I learned a long time ago.  You can never depend on people you can only depend on our Lord Jesus Christ.

Have a nice day!

People are fickle

I have been watching people and listening to everything they say.  I am starting to think that most or rather all people don’t really want to help me or you, in case you do better than expected.  I have started my own business and I must be honest it is very difficult to get it off the ground.  Not that easy but what I have noticed people have all promised and said, don’t worry we will help you ….. ha ha guess what?  No one is helping.  Pay it forward, I heard and there is no such thing.

I must be honest and say if you think you are going to make it with the help of other, think again.  I find people are all just mouth and no action.

Well I hope that when I one day get asked to help I will be able to help and not just be one of those many that make idle promises and keep mine.

Life, interesting life, it brings me back to what I learned a long time ago.  You can never depend on people you can only depend on our Lord Jesus Christ.

Have a nice day!

Looking back

Isnt it funny we alway seem to look back into our lives, where we come from, what we did and so on.  Why is it that we never look forward?  I am currently working on my attitute and working on my way of think.  I want to start looking forward, I want to look at what tomorrow can bring.  I know I have great treasurers in my life that is still to come and I want to reach them stretching myself and going forward. So today I dedicate my life back into the Lords hands and I pray Lord help me stay focused and look forward yesterday is gone and today is here.  I want to ask for supernatural favour with You Lord Jesus and with man.  Lord I want to also ask that You will bless me and keep me safe.  I pray for Your blessings into my life with You Lord Jesus as well as with man.  amen

Time Management

I dedicate my day into Your Hands dear Lord, help me to make the best of today and to live my life to the fullest.  Guide me and strengthen me, give me the ability to know right from wrong, help me to be kind and patient to everybody I meet today.  I thank You Lord for another day and I entrust myself into Your hands.  We all need You Lord Jesus in our lives, give us the strength to do our work one task at a time.  Let me complete each task given to me with the diligence You want me to use and thank You for the wisdom You have imparted to me.
I pray for my husband and children and ask that You will help them use their time wisely.  We only have so much time each day.
In Jesus Christs name I pray
Amen

I am my worst enemy.

There was a time when I could not open my mouth to say word and lately I don’t have a problem speaking my mind.  I say things that should be left unsaid and I tend to pick up when there is a problem and I bring it to the surface.  What on earth is wrong with me?  I just blaaaah and it’s out before I actually gave it some thought.

I work with a woman whom is going through some difficult time and I of course have been down the road she is travelling.  Husband cheats on her and she was really humiliated and made to be a complete fool.  Hurt by all of this she cried and put it behind her – did she put it behind her? I asked stupid questions like, why didn’t you get angry?  Why haven’t you spoken your mind?  It’s been 10 or more years and she is still struggling with feelings of rejection and pain.  She is still going through the same thing every time a certain woman’s name is mentioned or seen on mail.  I said, “you need to get angry”.  I believe that it should come to the surface and to deal with whatever the problem is.

Thinking about my advice, I should have kept my mouth shut and not said a single word, my words are supposed to be edifying and uplifting and making her feel even more inadequate and unwanted.

I must be honest I think I am the worst friend anybody can have, to straight forward and I don’t seem to have any compassion.  How will I ever be able to change this harden heart?  I wonder …..