dreams

I dreampt I was walking through my kitchen down the stairs to the garage and as I opened my garage door I looked up and all the boxes that were packed in the garage had disappeared.  I could hardly believe my eyes.  On waking up in the morning I walked to the garage to check what actually happened and I opened the door and al the boxes were still in its place.  I decided to check on the internet to see what this could this ment.  It stated that I was feeling alone and afraid and that I most probably was unsure of myself.  I am in a new environment and I am still adjusting to my new life style.  How weird are our inner being, we seem to send out messages in our dream to speak to ourselves.
My prayer for today is that the Lord will give me the strength to face this day and to trust in HIM and not be afraid.

What’s in a name?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately.  What does my name actually mean, when did my name come into being?  Well I thought about it and looked it up on the “net”.  Yvette came into being in 1880 and the meaning of my name is “restful place, yew tree, forgiveness, home, stone, willow, wise child, the one with the beautiful body, profile.”  

Proverbs 11: 22 “like a gold ring in a pig’s snout is a beautiful woman without discretion”.  Let me see, my name is important as it defines who I am.  Your looks don’t always make up for who you really are.  I have been watching some of these beautiful young girls and I must be honest I am surprised at the way they react.  I see that they have no discretion; they are so foolish and act like empty vessels with nothing inside of them that defines them from the rest of the world’s woman.

We need to draw near to the Lord so that we may learn discretion, so that we may learn to have sober habits and that we may be able to stand out and be holy.  Set apart and different from the normal run of the mill. 

Lord I want to be gracious, I need to grow spiritually and I want to have a discerning spirit and know that I am Your child. 

Maintaining Balance

I have heard about maintaining balance in one's life but it really does take practise.  I seem to struggle very much with that kind of thinking.  I try and try and often I fail.  I was thinking about it and it struck me the only way I can survive and live my life is by staying committed to the Lord Jesus.  It isn't that easy, I get busy and then I get side tracked.  I get upset with myself and then I start getting impatient with the people around me.  You cannot think that this would change who you are but it actually does.

My life is not worth much, these are thoughts that go through my mind constantly.  I am not the best wife or mother, I should have done more.  I then start feeling so guilty and then I start fighting with everybody around me.  I find that the more unhappy these thoughts make me the more unhappy I want to make the people around me.  How to remedy this?  I get back down on my knees and start praying, start looking for answers in the Bible.  Lord Jesus, please help me, my life is just not that great.  I seem to be so full of myself.

Again I am reminded, Epehsian 3: 18 - 19 "Yvette may you be able to feel and understand, how long, how wide, how deep, and how high His love really is;  and to experience this love for yourselves, though it is so great that you will never see the end of it or fully know or understand it.  And so at last you will be filled up with God Himself."  Lord fill me up so that I may become more like Jesus Christ and less the person I am right now.  I just cannot face the day without You Lord.

So I take the plung, get back down on my knees and pray for the Lord to help me.  I just cannot face this day without Him.  I cannot focus and stay focused, the people are just to fickel and I dont always like them never mind myself.

Have a great evening and a wonderful day.

Sad and heartsore

In South Africa, Wednesday 18 May 2011, we all went to the Voting Stations, my first stop was at the Veterinary.  My little Yorkshire Terrier, Dawie run out of the yard and into the yard of our neighbours and their dog bit my poor little puppies mouth off.  Dawie came home full of blood and everybody at home was upset.  We rushed off to the Vet and he looked at Dawie and apologised to me saying that he could not safe my puppy.  We had to say goodbye to our beloved little Yorkshire Terrier, he will not be following me around the house any longer.  Lord please keep my puppy safe in heaven. 
A vibrant lively little dog with a whole lot of spunk.

Snail?

Boring ....

What if?

“what if” and you know how it goes, you think what if I did this and that, how would my life have turned out.  Ahhh, the what if’s can drive you crazy and to top it off I am frustrated with my situation and then I also seem to be suffering with feelings of feeling lost and I just seem to be thinking how can I fix everything.  My attitude leaves much to be desired, snapping at people and just being so difficult.
I need to bow my knees and thank the Lord for his Grace in my life, Grace to face another day, Grace to realise that something good will come of what I am doing, Grace to know that the Lord is in control over my life and I don’t have to fear tomorrow. 

I received a message on face book, ‘Compliments of the day and hi, you look gorgeous, do u mind my friendship.’  My goodness, I am flattered and then I remember the Mentalist also commented on my wall “so beautiful” Patric Jane is cute.  So is my life boring?  Is it?  I wonder.  ….

Wednesday

The kids have been dropped off at school, Andus went to work and now its time to sit and reflex a little.  Today I dedicate my life into the hands of the Lord because I doubt I can make the day on my own.  I find it is becoming more and more difficult to do things without trusting in the Lord.  I see that on my own I mess up good and solled.
Today if possible I want to check out some sites on how to draw and start doing something in the meantime until the teacher let me know when they can fit me in.