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Renew me from the inside out.

Romans 12: 17 – 19 ‘don’t hit back; discover beauty in everyone.   If you’ve got it in you, get along with everybody.   Don’t insist on getting even; that’s not for you to do.   I’ll do the judging, says God.   ‘I’ll take care of it.’ (The Message) Life has not been so kind to me and I find the older I get the more I want to ‘hit back’.   I know and have come to realise that most people go through the same things.   People are fickle and boy can they disappoint you.   Looking back at what has happened in my own life, I sometimes feel that it is my right to actually ‘hit back’.   Well it isn’t that easy and being mean spirited doesn’t work for me.   I don’t want to become someone that is all bitter and twisted.   I don’t want to sit at home in a couple of years and think back to the years of being bitter and twisted.  I want to make a difference, I want people to look at me and say ‘she is always kind, understanding and f...

Hands

Have you looked at your hands lately?   I have been studying mine for a couple of weeks now.   They are so wrinkled and old looking it gives my age away.   Then I started to think about my hands, what they mean to me and how they serve me. First of all these hands of mine held my three children.   Helping them grow up, I fed them with my hands and later I taught them to dress properly with my hands.   I held them in my arms with my hands and I look after them with these hands.   I washed washing with these hands, I knitted and sewed with these hands, I painted oil paintings with these hands, I wrote long letters with these hands.   I washed dishes with these hands, cleaned my house with these hands.   My hands have seen so much water it is no wonder they are so wrinkled.     Most importantly my hands are able to do the things I need done, I can take up my Bible and read the scriptures.   With my hands I am able to ...

Romans 12 - a thought for the day

There was a time in my life when I believed that I would be looking after more children, perhaps I would adopt a couple of children to fill my house.   Life sure changes and I am looking after two young children.   The funny thing is I don’t have the same patience and understanding I may have had when I was a younger mom, I also get irritated by the way the children act and behave.   Nevertheless, they are two sweet young kids, growing up in a house with a step mom must be difficult for them too.   I have strict laws and I keep them to it, I don’t let anyone get away with stuff that don’t suit me.   So at the present time life is hard for them. Currently I am focusing my life on Romans 12, Paul writes and tells the Christians to keep their minds focused on God.   We need to keep our daily lives focused on God, you know your day-to-day living, your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life.   Bringing this before the Lord and as...

Photo Shoot

  We had a photo shoot over the weekend and it was great fun, I was enjoying the new adventure with my sister and mom, my daughter and step daughter and not forgetting my sexy nice.  My daughter arranged this day for us and we had a whale of a time. making memories was nice! we are grateful to spend time with my mom and with the family. How awesome it is to see how we all have grown.  

Step Mom

As a step mother I feel so inadequate and most of the time I feel not worthy.   I cannot imagine why God would let me be a step mother to another woman’s children.   Today I am a step mother looking after two young children with totally different values and points of view.   You may think you know what your future holds for you, my goodness only God knows.   God knows where you will be in 10 years’ time and you hope you will be were you need to be in 10 years’ time.   My only prayer would be Lord please guide me and direct my steps, I cannot do this on my own.   Thank you for a wonderful husband who understands me and appreciates the fact that I am not perfect.   I sometimes wonder if he doesn’t just want to run away and hide from me.   I feel like a dragon on fire when things don’t go the way I plan them and explode on many occasions.   You cannot believe how easy that is for me.   Other people simmer and stay quiet me on the other t...

I have to learn to like myself.

For as long as I can remember I have been told how fat I am, how lucky I am to find a husband, how lucky I am that someone actually cared about me and married me.   So many years have passed and I kept on believing that I am fat, that I am ugly and not attractive.    Then I got divorced and I lived alone with my three children for a couple of years. My perception of myself isn’t that great I still struggle with my self-image and I still fall flat on my face on a regular basis.   My husband is wonderful, he never ever tells me that I am fat or unattractive or stupid.   He constantly reminds me of his love for me and he constantly tells me how great I look.   He looks at me with loving eyes and helps me with everything.   He basically carries me on his hands. Because of my rebellious self I need to learn how to speak to myself softly, remind myself that I am worthy of his loving kindness.   I need to remind myself that I don’t have to go through ...

Our Father

How indescribable is our Father God.   God knows each one of us by name, He knows our daily needs.   Reading this passage in the Amplified Bible – Matthew 7: 11 ‘If you then, evil as you are, know how to give good and advantageous gifts to your children, how much more will your Father Who is in heaven [perfect as He is] give good and advantageous things to those who keep on asking Him! ’    When thinking of the needs of my children I know that they need to eat and I also know that they need a warm house to come home to.   I know they need to grow up in a friendly and homely environment.   I also know they have school needs which have to be addressed.   They also have heart desires and wishes that need to be addressed.   Sometimes I give them their hearts desire and wishes when they come to me asking what if they could have this or that.   I have also learned that yes there are many requests and some of them are just not good for them and I ...