Looking back

Isnt it funny we alway seem to look back into our lives, where we come from, what we did and so on.  Why is it that we never look forward?  I am currently working on my attitute and working on my way of think.  I want to start looking forward, I want to look at what tomorrow can bring.  I know I have great treasurers in my life that is still to come and I want to reach them stretching myself and going forward. So today I dedicate my life back into the Lords hands and I pray Lord help me stay focused and look forward yesterday is gone and today is here.  I want to ask for supernatural favour with You Lord Jesus and with man.  Lord I want to also ask that You will bless me and keep me safe.  I pray for Your blessings into my life with You Lord Jesus as well as with man.  amen

Time Management

I dedicate my day into Your Hands dear Lord, help me to make the best of today and to live my life to the fullest.  Guide me and strengthen me, give me the ability to know right from wrong, help me to be kind and patient to everybody I meet today.  I thank You Lord for another day and I entrust myself into Your hands.  We all need You Lord Jesus in our lives, give us the strength to do our work one task at a time.  Let me complete each task given to me with the diligence You want me to use and thank You for the wisdom You have imparted to me.
I pray for my husband and children and ask that You will help them use their time wisely.  We only have so much time each day.
In Jesus Christs name I pray
Amen

I am my worst enemy.

There was a time when I could not open my mouth to say word and lately I don’t have a problem speaking my mind.  I say things that should be left unsaid and I tend to pick up when there is a problem and I bring it to the surface.  What on earth is wrong with me?  I just blaaaah and it’s out before I actually gave it some thought.

I work with a woman whom is going through some difficult time and I of course have been down the road she is travelling.  Husband cheats on her and she was really humiliated and made to be a complete fool.  Hurt by all of this she cried and put it behind her – did she put it behind her? I asked stupid questions like, why didn’t you get angry?  Why haven’t you spoken your mind?  It’s been 10 or more years and she is still struggling with feelings of rejection and pain.  She is still going through the same thing every time a certain woman’s name is mentioned or seen on mail.  I said, “you need to get angry”.  I believe that it should come to the surface and to deal with whatever the problem is.

Thinking about my advice, I should have kept my mouth shut and not said a single word, my words are supposed to be edifying and uplifting and making her feel even more inadequate and unwanted.

I must be honest I think I am the worst friend anybody can have, to straight forward and I don’t seem to have any compassion.  How will I ever be able to change this harden heart?  I wonder …..

Morning Devotion

I dedicate my day and my life into the hands of my Lord Jesus Christ.  ... Hallowed be thy Name ... Baruch haba bashem Yeshua hamashia, Lord I will worship and praise Your name today.  I want to become more like You and I stand in humbleness before You this morning.  Lord please purify me and cleans me, create within me a clean heart, mind, spirit and soul.  Help me Lord to draw near to You today and not to disappoint You.  I dedicate my family into Your hands this morning and I pray Lord for supernatural favour in each of our childrens lives, Lord let each child enjoy Your supernatural favour with You Lord as well as with people.  Keep each child save let no harm come to them I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over each one.  My mum and her husband keep them save and I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over each one of them.  Lord I bring my husband before You this morning in humility and I pray for his protection, I ask Lord for supernatural favour in his life with You Lord as well as with man.  I bring my business before You Lord in humility and I ask Lord for supernatural favour in our business and I pray Lord that we may enjoy favour with You Lord as well as with man.  Lord getting us on our feet and helping us grow.  So that we may have more than enough to give to others and have for ourselves.  I thank You Father God, in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and saviour I pray.  Amen

Growing stronger through change

change is something we face every day, when you wake up in the morning and when you go to bed.  Change is constant.  I have been living in a very small town and it has been a real big adjustment in my life.  I think that it is very difficult to live with people that dont seem to understand the urgency of things.  Living in a big city and then moving to a little town is a huge change.  It is taking time to adjust and I find that I get irritated with the people and I am irritated with myself.  Why do we need to face change every day?  Well it struck me that we are in change all the time.  Our bodies are changing all the time, our mind changes all the time, we have to accept it but even the days are changing.  I looked outside and saw the sun is shining and the birds are singing and it looks lovely but can you believe it is freezing and cold, the weather even changes.  So lets face it change is constant.  So I said to myself, stop fighting and being difficult accept that you are in a changing world and that it is normal to change.  What to do, well from this moment on I am going to take one step at a time, I am not going to plan my life to death.  I am going to live each day moment by moment.  Engjoying each minute of the day and facing each situation as it comes my way.  Have a wonderful day and God bless you and me.

dreams

I dreampt I was walking through my kitchen down the stairs to the garage and as I opened my garage door I looked up and all the boxes that were packed in the garage had disappeared.  I could hardly believe my eyes.  On waking up in the morning I walked to the garage to check what actually happened and I opened the door and al the boxes were still in its place.  I decided to check on the internet to see what this could this ment.  It stated that I was feeling alone and afraid and that I most probably was unsure of myself.  I am in a new environment and I am still adjusting to my new life style.  How weird are our inner being, we seem to send out messages in our dream to speak to ourselves.
My prayer for today is that the Lord will give me the strength to face this day and to trust in HIM and not be afraid.

What’s in a name?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately.  What does my name actually mean, when did my name come into being?  Well I thought about it and looked it up on the “net”.  Yvette came into being in 1880 and the meaning of my name is “restful place, yew tree, forgiveness, home, stone, willow, wise child, the one with the beautiful body, profile.”  

Proverbs 11: 22 “like a gold ring in a pig’s snout is a beautiful woman without discretion”.  Let me see, my name is important as it defines who I am.  Your looks don’t always make up for who you really are.  I have been watching some of these beautiful young girls and I must be honest I am surprised at the way they react.  I see that they have no discretion; they are so foolish and act like empty vessels with nothing inside of them that defines them from the rest of the world’s woman.

We need to draw near to the Lord so that we may learn discretion, so that we may learn to have sober habits and that we may be able to stand out and be holy.  Set apart and different from the normal run of the mill. 

Lord I want to be gracious, I need to grow spiritually and I want to have a discerning spirit and know that I am Your child. 

Maintaining Balance

I have heard about maintaining balance in one's life but it really does take practise.  I seem to struggle very much with that kind of thinking.  I try and try and often I fail.  I was thinking about it and it struck me the only way I can survive and live my life is by staying committed to the Lord Jesus.  It isn't that easy, I get busy and then I get side tracked.  I get upset with myself and then I start getting impatient with the people around me.  You cannot think that this would change who you are but it actually does.

My life is not worth much, these are thoughts that go through my mind constantly.  I am not the best wife or mother, I should have done more.  I then start feeling so guilty and then I start fighting with everybody around me.  I find that the more unhappy these thoughts make me the more unhappy I want to make the people around me.  How to remedy this?  I get back down on my knees and start praying, start looking for answers in the Bible.  Lord Jesus, please help me, my life is just not that great.  I seem to be so full of myself.

Again I am reminded, Epehsian 3: 18 - 19 "Yvette may you be able to feel and understand, how long, how wide, how deep, and how high His love really is;  and to experience this love for yourselves, though it is so great that you will never see the end of it or fully know or understand it.  And so at last you will be filled up with God Himself."  Lord fill me up so that I may become more like Jesus Christ and less the person I am right now.  I just cannot face the day without You Lord.

So I take the plung, get back down on my knees and pray for the Lord to help me.  I just cannot face this day without Him.  I cannot focus and stay focused, the people are just to fickel and I dont always like them never mind myself.

Have a great evening and a wonderful day.

Sad and heartsore

In South Africa, Wednesday 18 May 2011, we all went to the Voting Stations, my first stop was at the Veterinary.  My little Yorkshire Terrier, Dawie run out of the yard and into the yard of our neighbours and their dog bit my poor little puppies mouth off.  Dawie came home full of blood and everybody at home was upset.  We rushed off to the Vet and he looked at Dawie and apologised to me saying that he could not safe my puppy.  We had to say goodbye to our beloved little Yorkshire Terrier, he will not be following me around the house any longer.  Lord please keep my puppy safe in heaven. 
A vibrant lively little dog with a whole lot of spunk.

Snail?

Boring ....

What if?

“what if” and you know how it goes, you think what if I did this and that, how would my life have turned out.  Ahhh, the what if’s can drive you crazy and to top it off I am frustrated with my situation and then I also seem to be suffering with feelings of feeling lost and I just seem to be thinking how can I fix everything.  My attitude leaves much to be desired, snapping at people and just being so difficult.
I need to bow my knees and thank the Lord for his Grace in my life, Grace to face another day, Grace to realise that something good will come of what I am doing, Grace to know that the Lord is in control over my life and I don’t have to fear tomorrow. 

I received a message on face book, ‘Compliments of the day and hi, you look gorgeous, do u mind my friendship.’  My goodness, I am flattered and then I remember the Mentalist also commented on my wall “so beautiful” Patric Jane is cute.  So is my life boring?  Is it?  I wonder.  ….